three weeks I must suffer. I can't wait for it to end. all I need is to here her voice or see her smile. I long for her touch, I pity myself for being so dumb. I consider this a good mistake. it is needed to make it stronger but I wish it wasn't needed. I'm afraid that the outcome might not be as it is hoped. I'm afraid to lose what I find so precious. once upon a time she was here, now I must wait to see her again.